Just Adik

This post eventually and specially for my sister Bella. I'd read your post in your blog. *sighing* I do know how you felt. I felt really sad for you. 
Hm. I don't know what should I type here. Since you made a lot of trouble for not going to school and etc. I just felt like, Superbly mad at you. I mean why you act this way ? Why you just making your parents and me felt disaster. You made me sick, you made me felt annoyed, you made me mad at you. You know what I mean ? The moment when you at home. You were only with laptop playing HABBO all day. So I'm kind of frustrated with you. When you said you don't want to study in Kisas, when you said you'd made choice for changing school from Kisas and back to Sman, I was like please think carefully. Think with your full of heart. Yes, Staying all by yourself in boarding school such a wrecking and devastated life for you. I do know how you felt because I'd already experienced living in hostel before. Eventhough my hostel is not far as you but still we stay away from family. And it is hurt. Inside and out. Hurt for staying away from our parents. Hm~
Why you didn't tell to dad instead ? I mean the choices is in your hand. SO if you 100% didn't even thought staying in Kisas, you should and you have to tell dad. SERIOUSLY. It is no use for you if you tell mom. Because mom has no right to do anything. I'm sorry for being to ignorant. For being to evil. For being to annoy for you. It is because I felt really mad at you. And when I sent you yesterday to Kisas. I was really sad. I was really upset. I felt so hard to let you go. You didn't even ate anything for lunch. And I don't know if you take something for dinner since it is already 7 something when we arrived at your school. Poor you Adik. Why are you doing this to me and mama ? When I help you to carry out your uniform's school. I thought I can hugged you or something but Yeah with that behavior of you. It is impossible. You didn't even looked back. Gosh~ 
Please, make this thing clear out. Please finished this problem of yours immediately. I can't stand living this way. Living with full of hatred and madness. It doesn't make any sense at all. I felt really suffocate. If you know what I mean. Ithinkthat's all. Bye.